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Friday, January 19th, 2007
3:09 am	an indescribable look of complete loss self destruction urks through to the surface and now a wear it like a fucking flag i've begun to wonder if upon reaching a certain point in your life when maybe you've discovered the truth of reality just a little too much is there a point of no return is there too much truth to ever let me feel the complete bliss and happiness i once did, could i ever feel it completely ever again once past this point, does this point exist, am i in a rut, if this point does infact exist am i that unfortunate to have crossed it so young Current Music: Liberty - Agnostic Front
Monday, December 18th, 2006
11:48 pm	i need a haircut, now. i bought doug is xmas presents today and i really hope he likes them i miss baltimore like no other and i've only been home for like 3 days (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 20th, 2006
2:52 pm	my day so far 830 am drawing board in one hand cigarette in the other, still cracked out on nyquil from the night prior i stumble to class, cracked out my head swirls with agony but finds an inner peace for a moment and then slaps me in the ass pushing me off the cloud Current Music: Tonight I'm Burning - Bombshell Rocks (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
4:07 am	(Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
12:23 am	i am both the insect under the boot and the boot over the insect anxiously waiting to make my move
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
2:15 am	fate?
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
11:49 pm	i leave tomarrow at 10 am, its almost hard to believe (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
10:10 am	i want it so bad i want to defy fate for even just today (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 28th, 2006
10:26 pm	i'm turning into an insomniac mess, i have to work in a few hours and i cant sleep (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
2:04 am	i quit my job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
11:43 pm	lack of sleep "you look like death today" i am death theres so much to say, theres so much going on and i cant spill a single drop its too early for the rain i'm sick of this box (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 18th, 2006
10:23 pm	livejournal is dead, my thoughts only occasionally hit the press, where are yours? the same place? a pile of crumpled note to self post-its that did'nt make it here for your viewing pleasure its seemingly pointless, no one can save you but yourself its time to reorganize myself i am an emotional zombie, a psychological vampire seeking out anything to suck life from three and a quarter months Current Mood: mellow Current Music: portished (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
11:21 pm	through all of the debate and advice and dwelling (thank you to everyone who listened to me babble) i've decided i really just need to go to maryland baltimore is going to provide me with more than i can even fathom right now what is really scary is like the first month everything is new, the people, the places, i wont know anyone or where anything is, i wont know where i can buy cigarettes, ect. i cant help but think of all this little shit alone in an environment of unlimited potential it seems like i'm just running, but i honestly believe this is the best thing i can do for myself as far as creating a future and further developing my art my heart is here and leaving it unattended is an unbearable thought i love you ps i want stories, tell me what it was like for you Current Music: sonic youth (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
8:49 pm	i have a dilemma that wont let me sleep or function by may 1st i have to decide if i'm leaving for maryland art school for 4 years or staying here at pratt in utica for 2 years then going to maryland for 2 years HELP (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
11:32 pm	this tick tock tick tock waste of time, this thump thump thump heartbeat barely to exist is this pushing ignorance away or indulgeing in it in this battle she is a powerless dragon with no flame she exhales smoke out her mouth and nostrols in protest i've never felt my insides ignight as intensly out of fear and built up rage as they were fiction is fact and for 9 months i knew something that "god" himself does not except but who am i to say, i was never religious fiction is fact Current Mood: in your eyes i have no soul Current Music: portishead (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
12:12 pm	i got accepted to sait rose, too bad i didnt like it there (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
2:49 pm	sid plus nancy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
5:00 pm	Recently: Remember? (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
1:39 pm	a couple days ago i got a letter from pratt offering me an estimated 7 thousand $ scholarship based on my portfolio alone. The exact amount will be determined when they recieve my transcript. that quite honestly makes me feel like gold i have a delema, its my senior year, i'm careing less and less about this high school shit each day, my first semester report card this year was my worst.. ever.. i've finally run out of ambition for this rutine, i see more and more how pointless alot of it all is, how much time i'm wasteing, how much i want to just imerse myself in art and focus there but in order to do that i have to get through 3 more quaters of highschool ..fucking shit.. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 12th, 2005
11:30 pm	today was one of the best days ever, pratt LOVED my portfolio and accepted me on that basis, i just have to send in the formal application with my gpa and sat scores and such and if that goes okay i'm in! (Comment on this)